For Today ~ December 1, 2009
Outside my window... it's clear and crisp.
I am thinking... about how I just know this decision by Kyndal and her dad for her to go live with him is wrong, wrong, wrong. Yet I feel powerless to keep her from making a decision I know she will regret someday. And I am not going to even try to talk her into staying.
I am thankful ... that this family's future looks bright.
I am wearing... my Jackson Hole Wyoming shirt, my favorite jeans, my most comfortable and casual shoes and my hair in a pony.
I am remembering... a time in my life when I made the biggest mistake of it to date, that I was pretty sure at the time was a mistake, all because I was impatient about having a life I wanted.
I am creating... a completion of my Christmas shopping list.
I am going... to clean the heck out of my house this afternoon, and then get my new blog set up to get this house sold.
I am reading... The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks (still).
I am hoping... that 2010 is a better year.
On my mind... is losing my daughter.
From the learning rooms... We are getting close to wrapping up the semester, which means lots of projects and tests for the older two. Eli and Brynne are continuing with their letter studies. Brynne and I need to decorate a gingerbread man this week. I think we'll use leftover candy from Halloween!
Pondering these words ... "I'm not afraid to try." ~ Kyndal
From the kitchen... we're eating Weight Watcher's inspired meals because Rick is wanting to lose some weight before Christmas.
Around the house... our neighbors have up all of their Christmas decorations. We still do not. That is the plan for this weekend.
One of my favorite things... is getting good bargains, and I have gotten tons of them lately thanks to Sherri @ Luv a Bargain!!
A few plans for the rest of the week... Today Brynne and I are going to the grocery store, and then I'm cleaning house. Kyndal has an ortho appointment on Thursday. And this week I am finishing up my Christmas gift for Rick. Other than that I am just keeping the girls this week and trying to get through it with as few emotional breakdowns as possible. I'm likely moving Kyndal out this weekend. Sad week here, I'm afraid. There will be lots of tears. We'll try to pull it all together this weekend to get up our Christmas decorations. I just really want to put a focus on the real meaning of Christmas this year! We need to be pointed to Jesus now more than ever.
From my picture journal.
A photo of the back of the house we are looking to buy in Missouri, if Rick's job thing works out. Look at that property! Isn't it beautiful??? There are horses next door, tons of gardening spots, apple and pear trees and tons of berry bushes! Don't be deceived, though, it needs TONS of work! But, the price is right. We'll see!!! This is what gives me hope of better days to come.
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I'm new here, I definitely don't know the background story, but as a mother I can certainly relate to the sense of loss. I'm so sorry. I hope you're wrong. I hope it's not a mistake for your daughter, or that she realizes it is and is brave and strong enough to take steps to correct it. I hope God gives you a sense of peace about the things you can not change, and strength to get through the difficult days ahead.
ReplyDeleteI'll truly be thinking of you and wishing you well.
Aww i'm so sorry you have to be going through this! I hope she realizes that the grass isn't always greener on the other side. I'm here if you need to vent! :(
ReplyDeleteIs the house near me?? or near your folks??
I'm sorry to hear that your daughter is moving out. Fifteen is such a hard age, they are kinda in between a little girl and a woman. They are faced with new things they have never experienced before. Changes in themselves, boys and countless other things. It is hard to hold your tongue when you know she is making a mistake. One day she will realize you only want the best for her because you love her!!
ReplyDeletePrayers going out for you! I have been in those shoes and still (after two years) struggle with it at times. I know it's difficult. You are going to have to lean heavily on God & Rick. You can do this though. You are a strong Christian woman and I believe in you!! If you ever need to talk, don't hesitate! We (you, Loren & myself) need to get together sometime soon!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to read how things are going with Kyndal. If she decides it is a mistake just be ready with open arms. I can't imagine your heartache right now. I'm praying!
ReplyDeleteThe place you are wanting to purchase looks fantastic. Plenty of outdoor space for the kids to explore & lots of wonderful trees. Love it!
~Keri
You are in my thoughts. I'm sorry Nicole.
ReplyDeleteOh Nicole, I am so sorry to hear about Kyndal's decision. I know this is extremely hard. Just know I am thinking about you lots. And even though I'm not right there, I am here if you need anything at all.
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