Ramblings of a Wife Who Thinks Her Husband (Rick) Rocks

It hit me this morning while I was putting on my makeup.

I've been asking the wrong question all these years, or at least these years that I have been looking for answers.

I have been trying to always figure out how to make sure Rick knows I love him ... for him to be completely secure in it. But, it occurred to me that he knows that I love him. He doesn't doubt it for a second. What he doesn't know is whether I like him. And that's where the doubt and insecurities come in.

When I was a little girl, my parents were always going out with a big group of their friends. But they rarely went anywhere alone. I can remember a couple of times when they did, that I was worried about them. I can consciously and vividly remember feeling sorry for my parents that they were going to have to be alone with each other. I think I knew, even as a little girl, that my parents were not very compatible. I don't think they have ever been friends.

Within seconds of knowing Rick, I was in love with him. I was mostly in love with him because he tapped into me instantly. It's like he always knew me. It's like he knew exactly what made me tick. And, he still knows it. He can draw things out of me that I don't even know are there {or am too fearful to admit.}

I have had such a harder time doing the same for him. I think it's because he is always so giving to me, that I forget that he needs things from me too. And, his needs go beyond me being a good housekeeper, a good mother and his lover.

Rick has a strong need for me to be his best friend, his favorite companion. I have always thought that I was. But, I suck at being a friend. That's why I don't have any. I've been spending all of these years trying to find a good friend, and be a good friend to her. I have a good friend!!! I just need to figure out how to be a good friend to him! And that means learning what he needs from a friend and being that for him. Not every person has the same friendship needs. Not all men are the same when it comes to their favored companions. My job, as Rick's wife, is to determine his friendship needs and make sure that I am that friend to him.

And it's because I truly think Rick Rocks that I am determined to do just that.